2020 has been really busy so far! There has been so much going on in the world so it’s really hard to just talk about one aspect of 2020. I’ve had a lot of break through growing experiences this year, and it’s safe to say that I’ve caught the blogging bug again. So this week I wanted to share my perspective of what the pandemic has taught me.
When the pandemic hit, I was in full grind mode! closing houses, gigging, doing mommy duties, knocking out phase one of our master plan to take over the world. Once the shut down happened it was like everything just stopped. I couldn’t work or go anywhere and all of a sudden I’m homeschooling my 7 year old for the rest of the school year.
I could not understand why this was happening! I mean, I finally get my momentum going and BOOM out of no where the world is filled with germs and we have to stay indoors. WHY!? I went down the internet rabbit hole, I was angry, I was confused, I was afraid, then I was sad, and looking for someone to blame. I basically went through the steps of mourning. It was then that I realized that I was mourning the way the world used to be.
We went to Washington D.C during the pandemic. D.C was way behind Virginia with their reopening. We walked around our nations capital at time when social, political, and economic tensions were really high. The vibe was super weird. There was still an air of paranoia because people were just starting to leave their homes. The black lives matter plaza was basically a tourist spot surrounded by big BLACK LIVES MATTER billboards that were branded with logos of fortune 500 companies. We walked around the plaza (that was secured by the police to make sure it was safe) and we saw all sorts of art work. Some of it was about racism, but a lot of it was just people admitting their biggest fears right now. There was one poster that someone drew that simply said “I MISS MY DAD”.
Our trip to D.C really helped put things into perspective. I realized that everyone is mourning the old world right now. I think as a collective we low key know that the world will never be the same after this. I believe that we are all trying to figure out who will we be and what will we become. I realized that so much of our identity is wrapped up old narrative that no longer serve us, and I believe that the only way through is to let go.
Once I came to terms with the pandemic and this transition that we are all going through, I made it my duty to just radically care for myself at this time. I stopped subscribing to black power and conspiracy theory narratives and I started focusing on my own narrative. I believe that the only way to really know who we will be in this new world, is to self evaluate, and make changes on a personal level. Who will you be in this new world? Do you feel like you miss the way the world used to be? I would love to know if you guys feel the same! Let me know your thoughts down below!